My Birthday Blog..- once 40 +.. Numbers don't count.. Accomplishments count.

Today is my birthday.

And…. I am not going to talk about Numbers anymore…as once you cross 40 ..i guess Numbers don’t matter.  For me, a birthday was that one day of the year where you felt ‘special’. It meant brand-new gifts, my favourite meal cooked for dinner; my very own party! It was my day – yes, I shared it with lot of people around the world but for some reason, it still felt like my own. 

Now that I’m in my 40s and I don’t need the party and presents. But I still maintain expectations for the day –  calls from my friends, some Facebook messages , Whatsapp Wishes pouring in groups..  I now find myself using the day as an opportunity for self-reflection. What was I doing this time last year? What are my goals for the next 12 months?  

As we all know..2016 has somehow passed very very fast for most of us.. For some unexplained reason, the year 2016 had a pace that was not seen before.. The climax of 2016 was even faster with the “DEMONATISATION” and economics over dosage.  The sense of un explained anxiety prevailed throughout that period and that really made me think one very important thing..  

Just one day.. or even one second has the capability to really change everything for everyone.. Does it mean that what we think or plan for future is still uncertain as there will be a lot of new factors which will suddenly come and turn the tables upside down..  If so.. then why are we making plans for future.. why are we not living in present as we should be and enjoy every moment , do everything that we planned to do next week or next month or next year and DO IT NOW… as Shahrukh khan once said “ KAL HO NA HO”..

Work keeps me busy and fuelled and I am happy about it but at the same time, I somehow feel that the balance of work and my personal goals is still not achieved and that is going to be my target for this year of 2017.. My bucket list is growing and that’s what is going to be focus on doing things that I INTEND TO DO BUT NOT ABLE TO DO..

When I look back with the years that I have spent growing myself, I strongly feel that  not every person has those resources. So many people around the world don’t get to be what they want to be because their job becomes surviving. It’s hard for me to stand on a platform and ignore my obligation to do something to contribute to the world I want to live in. 

It’s the reason I’m so open and honest about my own doubts, insecurities, and shame. It’s not easy to share pieces of me that I’ve hidden or felt insecure about for so many years. But it’s liberating to be able to air out what I once thought were skeletons in my closet and opening up has been rewarding and liberating. 

But I want to do more than just share my story with hopes that it empowers or inspires. So many people around the world need help and if with the help of people around me if I can make a small difference in the life of those people,  it will be my true birthday gift to myself.  This year my focus is going to be on accomplishing those things that I have dreamt of doing and not been doing due to LACK OF TIME.. which is a wonderful excuse to have.  

I wish to break those barriers and take charge of myself.

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Till then.. stay blessed, stay healthy…

9th January 2017..